well...(continued)

today is january 8th, 2009. And guess what?! he came back. the boy i was talking about in the previous blog. i find it amusing because i knew he would. i'm having a problem deciding what to do. he hurt me and has made me cry 4 times hysterically when we were only dating a month and a half. i feel like going back to him would be like shooting myself in the foot. pointless and hurting myself. you're suppose to teach people how to treat you, i'm not doing a good job. i'm teaching him it's okay to put me through crap, i don't deserve, for no reason. he dumped me on my birthday. technically i dumped him because he said "we need to talk because i don't think we're working out anymore." i had heard he was going to dump me because i was immature, so i got upset and said "well fck it, fck u. i'm done. get your class ring after this class." (we were texting) i don't regret it at all, it was what i wanted to be free of his mess so i should be happy now, i should be able to tell him "no, i don't want or need you back. you don't know what love is and i'm sick of it." i tried last night but i ended up writing this long picture message with a picture of us and the song he sent me (him playing "you and me" by lifehouse) describing my feelings and how i would get over them because he obviously didn't want me anymore, then he sent a sad face. then we argued over texts, then i told him to call me or leave me alone because i was getting sick of texting him. ahhhhhhh! we talked, we argued, he hung up, i called back, we talked, i cried, we argued, i hung up, he called back, we talked, i hung up, he called back then i said i was going to call some one else then i hung up. today, at school he hasn't made an effort to talk to me at all, and though it doesn't really bother me i wish he would. but it's whatever, i'll get over it. i always do. i will be deleting this blog because i hate having reminders of past relationships. goodbye. -laurennn.<>