let it go(:

haha, anyway i thought i would update you on how my life as been going since my last entry. well, i've got a boyfriend. we've been dating for less than a day but we've been talking for like two weeks. he's so sweet but that's how they all start out. as for my ex-boyfriend, i care but not as much as i did. i miss him but i'm getting over it. he was too old for me and it was inevitable that we were going to end one day. we don't talk much. i haven't spoke to him since thursday and i don't plan on it. i'm going to let it go, we might end up friends and if not, oh well. that would be his loss. my weekend went pretty good. friday night, i baby sitted (like always) then saturday night, i went to the movies with richard and his friend jeremy. my bestfriend courtney was suppose to go but couldn't because she was in rocky mount. i wanted my bestfriend lindsey to go but she didn't have a ride. ): so yeah, jeremy was kinda singled out. At the movies, richard was so sweet. he held my hand alot and put his arm around me. i felt so special, that always happens the first time i chill with a guy. i'm feeling good about him though. i am worried that we won't work out because he lives in ronoake rapids and it's going to be hard to see him every weekend, but i'm going to try my damnest. let's look at the happy things that are happening and lose sight of the bad, for now. right now, i'm in my favorite class, freshman seminar with mr.long. he's hilarious and i've learned alot from him. he's the only teacher that saw me sling a fit over steven. even when i was balling my eyes out, mr.long made me laugh. i will always remember him even when i'm long gone from this highschool. class of 2013, babyy! well, that's pretty much it for today so far. i get out of school at two o' clock. there's a game at northeast against my school, i want to go but i can bet money that mom won't let me. ): later alligator! (in a while crocodile. -lindsey. hahah) -lauren loves lindseybabyy(:

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today is january 8th, 2009. And guess what?! he came back. the boy i was talking about in the previous blog. i find it amusing because i knew he would. i'm having a problem deciding what to do. he hurt me and has made me cry 4 times hysterically when we were only dating a month and a half. i feel like going back to him would be like shooting myself in the foot. pointless and hurting myself. you're suppose to teach people how to treat you, i'm not doing a good job. i'm teaching him it's okay to put me through crap, i don't deserve, for no reason. he dumped me on my birthday. technically i dumped him because he said "we need to talk because i don't think we're working out anymore." i had heard he was going to dump me because i was immature, so i got upset and said "well fck it, fck u. i'm done. get your class ring after this class." (we were texting) i don't regret it at all, it was what i wanted to be free of his mess so i should be happy now, i should be able to tell him "no, i don't want or need you back. you don't know what love is and i'm sick of it." i tried last night but i ended up writing this long picture message with a picture of us and the song he sent me (him playing "you and me" by lifehouse) describing my feelings and how i would get over them because he obviously didn't want me anymore, then he sent a sad face. then we argued over texts, then i told him to call me or leave me alone because i was getting sick of texting him. ahhhhhhh! we talked, we argued, he hung up, i called back, we talked, i cried, we argued, i hung up, he called back, we talked, i hung up, he called back then i said i was going to call some one else then i hung up. today, at school he hasn't made an effort to talk to me at all, and though it doesn't really bother me i wish he would. but it's whatever, i'll get over it. i always do. i will be deleting this blog because i hate having reminders of past relationships. goodbye. -laurennn.<>

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this one's not going to be very cheerful. my boyfriend dumped me after a month and a half, the very day after my birthday. i was all too pieces, even worse he didn't give me a reason. so all i have to say, is i'm sorry for the wasted time. i shouldn't have taken him back after he had messed up once but that's how us girls are. we strive for love and we sacrifice our hearts for it. Dumb decision, i'm done. i'm going to delete this blog soon. goodbye. -lauren