young && naive;

"boys, especially young ones, put girls on a sea saw. one moment they can have you at the tops of the world, then in a split second they can have you at the bottom." -l.e.d.

i often find myself depending on a pathetic guy for happiness. i'm not sure if it's a gene that 90% of all teenage girls have or if it's just the need for some one to love them. i kind of feel like a "hoe" because i could not name every guy i've ever called my "boyfriend". it's childish and immature but as long as you are respectful to yourself and others what's the big deal? i have lower than low self esteem, i consider myself "fat" as would most people i know, most are too polite to admit it. i'm very insecure and i've already mentioned my problem with crying all the time, over nothing. i have alot of people i consider my friends, even though some have tainted their trust over time. i feel like a dumbbutt every single time a guy breaks my heart. i feel like i saw it coming but ignored it. i'm young & naive and one day i will be able to experience love in it's purity and glory. "love never fails" 1 Corinthians 13:8. i trust God will help me with my life and troubles no matter what. i trust God already has a plan for me and the man i will be with. i just have to put all faith in him and stop worrying about things that don't matter. i need to focus more on God, my family, friends (the real ones) and school. i do have a boyfriend right now but sadly i can't say it's true love. we've haven't even made it to a month yet, and he's had me crying hysterically three times. i'm trying to trust him but i feel like it could end any minute. "everytime i think i'm getting stronger i just break down." -lauren drewette.<3