DREAM BiG;

One thing i've always been able to do is dream. Do you know how in pre-school and kindergarten, we were required to take naps? i used to dread it everyday, as i was so energetic and loved action. about a year after i started pre-school i realized the key to sleeping, it allowed you to dream. i loved dreams, even the scary ones, because it made me feel enchanted, like anything could happen. i even had a dream catcher that was suppose to filter the bad dreams, and i beleived it did. i soon became to where i could not wait until nap time. when i woke up, i would tell all my friends what i saw. Was it childish? of course it was, i was like four years old. this continued for a very long time, i even remember one little girl called me "dreamer" which i thought was cute. Today, i obviously don't get nap time but i still dream at night. Some of my dreams are great and make me feel refreshed in the morning but since i'm older, i know more, i imagine more. my imagination is often stopped by knowledge of the real world. Like the real evil things that are happening right now at this very moment. Now, i don't just dream while i sleep. i daydream all the time and hope that i do more with my life than what is expected of me. i really do dream big. i dream that one day, i will be blessed with every one of my family members in good health. i dream that i will have a successful career and a college education. i dream that i will be able to support a family just as my parents have for me. after reading my other blogs you can tell, i complain alot about everyday life. that's mainly because i'm spoiled rotten and everytime i don't get my way or get my feelings hurt, i cry and cry some more. that's just how i've been raised. i have been lucky enough to have a family that would do anything for me and even though i may take them for granted all the time, i still love them. i just wish, hope and dream that one day i can repay them for the great life they have provided me with. i dream that my dreams will come true. i have faith that God will guide me onto the right paths and pick the dreams that are destined for me. So just dream. If you're having a bad day, dream. If you're upset over something look at the possitive things, dream about your future and how you're going to make your dreams come true. No dream is ever too big or too hard to accomplish. Just try your hardest and give your best. shoot for the stars and you'll one day get to the moon. :)

-l. drewette.

He's the reason for the season :)

well it's christmas time again, and i feel great about it. everytime this time of year i feel like anything could happen. I'm always excited about the food, presents and visiting the family. i always feel moved and inspired because of course, it's jesus' birthday. Some people seem to forget without him christmas nor anything else would exist. they completely turn christmas into a huge festival for giving gifts. Most people wouldn't even realize how giving gifts ties in with jesus & some don't even care. Think about it. God gives all the time, From Second Chances to Hope. He gives us everything we need. Eventually the "Santa Claus" Tradition came along. Once again, Giving Gifts to young children to spread happiness. I, myself, loved that tradition and i still do even though the mystery behind it is gone. The only thing i'm really trying to say is while you're celebrating christmas, don't forget the REAL meaning behind it. So Merry Christmas. "Jesus is the reason for the season."

also.....
i'm in remediation. it's boring as usual but this is our last day. no more classes with sam and he leaves for college next year ): oh well i wish him the best even though i will miss him liiike crazy. The rest of the day will flyyy by i hope. Katie's going to stay with me for the weekend and steven's coming over sunday to hang out. ima miss lindsey though :) haha. i love you both.<3>

young && naive;

"boys, especially young ones, put girls on a sea saw. one moment they can have you at the tops of the world, then in a split second they can have you at the bottom." -l.e.d.

i often find myself depending on a pathetic guy for happiness. i'm not sure if it's a gene that 90% of all teenage girls have or if it's just the need for some one to love them. i kind of feel like a "hoe" because i could not name every guy i've ever called my "boyfriend". it's childish and immature but as long as you are respectful to yourself and others what's the big deal? i have lower than low self esteem, i consider myself "fat" as would most people i know, most are too polite to admit it. i'm very insecure and i've already mentioned my problem with crying all the time, over nothing. i have alot of people i consider my friends, even though some have tainted their trust over time. i feel like a dumbbutt every single time a guy breaks my heart. i feel like i saw it coming but ignored it. i'm young & naive and one day i will be able to experience love in it's purity and glory. "love never fails" 1 Corinthians 13:8. i trust God will help me with my life and troubles no matter what. i trust God already has a plan for me and the man i will be with. i just have to put all faith in him and stop worrying about things that don't matter. i need to focus more on God, my family, friends (the real ones) and school. i do have a boyfriend right now but sadly i can't say it's true love. we've haven't even made it to a month yet, and he's had me crying hysterically three times. i'm trying to trust him but i feel like it could end any minute. "everytime i think i'm getting stronger i just break down." -lauren drewette.<3