DREAM BiG;

One thing i've always been able to do is dream. Do you know how in pre-school and kindergarten, we were required to take naps? i used to dread it everyday, as i was so energetic and loved action. about a year after i started pre-school i realized the key to sleeping, it allowed you to dream. i loved dreams, even the scary ones, because it made me feel enchanted, like anything could happen. i even had a dream catcher that was suppose to filter the bad dreams, and i beleived it did. i soon became to where i could not wait until nap time. when i woke up, i would tell all my friends what i saw. Was it childish? of course it was, i was like four years old. this continued for a very long time, i even remember one little girl called me "dreamer" which i thought was cute. Today, i obviously don't get nap time but i still dream at night. Some of my dreams are great and make me feel refreshed in the morning but since i'm older, i know more, i imagine more. my imagination is often stopped by knowledge of the real world. Like the real evil things that are happening right now at this very moment. Now, i don't just dream while i sleep. i daydream all the time and hope that i do more with my life than what is expected of me. i really do dream big. i dream that one day, i will be blessed with every one of my family members in good health. i dream that i will have a successful career and a college education. i dream that i will be able to support a family just as my parents have for me. after reading my other blogs you can tell, i complain alot about everyday life. that's mainly because i'm spoiled rotten and everytime i don't get my way or get my feelings hurt, i cry and cry some more. that's just how i've been raised. i have been lucky enough to have a family that would do anything for me and even though i may take them for granted all the time, i still love them. i just wish, hope and dream that one day i can repay them for the great life they have provided me with. i dream that my dreams will come true. i have faith that God will guide me onto the right paths and pick the dreams that are destined for me. So just dream. If you're having a bad day, dream. If you're upset over something look at the possitive things, dream about your future and how you're going to make your dreams come true. No dream is ever too big or too hard to accomplish. Just try your hardest and give your best. shoot for the stars and you'll one day get to the moon. :)

-l. drewette.

He's the reason for the season :)

well it's christmas time again, and i feel great about it. everytime this time of year i feel like anything could happen. I'm always excited about the food, presents and visiting the family. i always feel moved and inspired because of course, it's jesus' birthday. Some people seem to forget without him christmas nor anything else would exist. they completely turn christmas into a huge festival for giving gifts. Most people wouldn't even realize how giving gifts ties in with jesus & some don't even care. Think about it. God gives all the time, From Second Chances to Hope. He gives us everything we need. Eventually the "Santa Claus" Tradition came along. Once again, Giving Gifts to young children to spread happiness. I, myself, loved that tradition and i still do even though the mystery behind it is gone. The only thing i'm really trying to say is while you're celebrating christmas, don't forget the REAL meaning behind it. So Merry Christmas. "Jesus is the reason for the season."

also.....
i'm in remediation. it's boring as usual but this is our last day. no more classes with sam and he leaves for college next year ): oh well i wish him the best even though i will miss him liiike crazy. The rest of the day will flyyy by i hope. Katie's going to stay with me for the weekend and steven's coming over sunday to hang out. ima miss lindsey though :) haha. i love you both.<3>

young && naive;

"boys, especially young ones, put girls on a sea saw. one moment they can have you at the tops of the world, then in a split second they can have you at the bottom." -l.e.d.

i often find myself depending on a pathetic guy for happiness. i'm not sure if it's a gene that 90% of all teenage girls have or if it's just the need for some one to love them. i kind of feel like a "hoe" because i could not name every guy i've ever called my "boyfriend". it's childish and immature but as long as you are respectful to yourself and others what's the big deal? i have lower than low self esteem, i consider myself "fat" as would most people i know, most are too polite to admit it. i'm very insecure and i've already mentioned my problem with crying all the time, over nothing. i have alot of people i consider my friends, even though some have tainted their trust over time. i feel like a dumbbutt every single time a guy breaks my heart. i feel like i saw it coming but ignored it. i'm young & naive and one day i will be able to experience love in it's purity and glory. "love never fails" 1 Corinthians 13:8. i trust God will help me with my life and troubles no matter what. i trust God already has a plan for me and the man i will be with. i just have to put all faith in him and stop worrying about things that don't matter. i need to focus more on God, my family, friends (the real ones) and school. i do have a boyfriend right now but sadly i can't say it's true love. we've haven't even made it to a month yet, and he's had me crying hysterically three times. i'm trying to trust him but i feel like it could end any minute. "everytime i think i'm getting stronger i just break down." -lauren drewette.<3

busy bee ;)

well, sorry for taking so long to write again. i've been a little busy. more drama, heartbreaks, bullsht and the normal teenage problems. i'm single. been that way for a while now. i'm oddly okay with that. the picture above is of my dog, simon, after i gave him a bath sunday. :) that was a boring and rather dissapointing day all because of a guy, imagine that. all i did was watch movies and hang out with my cousins, so it ended up not being too bad.

school is eh, well school. not very fun or exciting. dramatic and i resembles hell but not exciting. i love my friends, my hilarious, sometimes stupid, considerate friends. the picture below is me, dylan and jordan. i've know jordan since kindergarten. i have some crazy memories with that lil' boy. :) i've known dylan since middle school. i love him to death. he's honest and a little too cocky but he's hilarious. i just got done helping hannah and nick with homework. oh joy. these kids drive me insane and they're the perfect birthcontrol fer' sho :) BUT i still love them to death.
i gotta clean house and fold clothes so i'll post again soon.

byeee :)

-lauren.elizabeth.drewette.<3 span <>

"bestfriends are there, even when the rest of the world walks out"

"be who you are because keep in mind that the people who mind don't matter and the people that matter don't mind"

-anonymous

find out who you're friends are;

That's Courtney Dawn Stegall.

:)

i looove her.

i'm home with my bestfriend courtney. sorry, i didn't write when i got home. i just simply forgot. the rest of my day went okay yesterday other than seeing my "old bestfriend" hug my ex-boyfriend, the one i'm still on love with. it hurts because she couldn't stand him when we dated, always talking pure crap about him. she said some ugly things to me after i asked her why she hugged him so we're not really friends anymore. i can't trust her so it's probably for the best. i will get over it. now it's saturday, courtney and i haven't done much. last night we watched "The Orphan". it's really creepy and i jumped many times. today we rode around the fields on my momma's yellow chevy cobalt, jamming to music. we're cool like that. :) we're back at home now and we're hopefully going to a party later. i'm glad me and her are close again. we've been through everything but we're great BESTfriends now. i guess i'm going to fix lunch.

+oh yeah, "find out who you're friends are" is a song by tracey lawrence. it's so true.

-lauren.<33

school; woo hoo :)

well well well... i'm in remediation. it's suppose to be time for us to study but there's nothing to study so this is basicly what i do in here. it's a boring day so far. Me, Sam and lindsey are just looking up random things on the internet.

it's kind of funny how lindsey and i ended up bestfriends, considering we got into a fist fight in 7th grade. it was just a bunch of stupid childish drama that most everyone goes through in middle school. i've realized to befriends everyone and trust none. I trust way to easy so i have decided to trust very few. i also forgive way too easily. it's shocking how many girls are so crazy over guys that they sacrifice a friendship for the guy. well the bell's about to ring and that sends me to health so this is about it :) i'll probably post another blog when i get home, just to vent about how the rest of my day went. goodbye, and have a nice day :)
-lauren.<3

here we go;

i'm a normal teenager with normal problems. i'm an emotional person, and that's mostly the reason why i created this blog. i want to get my feelings out healthily and become a stronger person. i've let stupid guys bring me and my self esteem down. i consider my self over weight and i continuosly think to myself how ugly i see myself as. my feelings have reason. I'm not sure of all of them but i intend to find out. i don't blow up or cry over nothing. they may be small things but they aren't nothing. i'm constantly getting taken advantage of and i try to hard to make other people happy, often sacrificing my own happiness. Family and Bestfriends are a huge part of my life and I can't picture a life worth living without them. i love to dream. it's honestly the best thing i can do. i will probably sound childish, i really don't care, but i love this song called "butterfly" by miley & billy ray cyrus. One of the lyrics says "you can't go far but you can always dream". you should aways dream big. even when life is at it's absolute worst. dreams help provide hope. God is my inspiration, leader, father and everything i need in life. i'm very thankful for my blessings and i am by far not the best christian i can be but i try. i have alot more to say but since this is my first blog i'm not going to keep going on and on. but you can bet i will be back.

-lauren elizabeth drewette.<3